Oh my. The year, the decade, is about to end and I have not written one single post here in over 12 months. Not because I haven't had anything to say, or to contemplate, but I guess because I haven't had the need for my voice to be heard. In reality, life is now so much more about doing, or about recovering from being busy, that there's little time for recording contemplations or reflections. I'm laying here on my bed, recovering from the flu, feeling all sorts of guilt from not being at work and worried about all of the things I still need to do, to realise that we are all in a way quite dispensable. Too often do I take things too seriously when in fact all I need to do is let things be and breathe. Take it in and move on.
So let me tell you a few things...
The house looks different. We've been master renovators; there's a little bit of us in every corner and groove of this house, that it is finally starting to feel ours. It's quite something looking around to know a little bit of you is in everything that surrounds you.
I've been promoted at work - imposter syndrome is real and I keep wanting to figure out ways to get rid of it. Instead, I keep convincing myself that yes in fact, I did that.
We travelled to Vietnam and Cambodia, that was quite something. Feels like a lifetime ago. Travelling changes you, enriches you, makes you more self-aware.
My legs have been moving, slowly but surely, in preparation for a marathon in April. I always said I wanted to run one before my 30th and well, I'll be 30 next year, so, you know... And it'll be a decade since Matt ran his first one, so something quite special to celebrate.
I've been reading more, moving my body often, exploring my surroundings, but still not quite good at staying in touch with people. I'm still trying to figure out why, not sure I ever will.
And I'm sure there is more, but I'm going to potter about a bit before falling into a daze once again.
One more thing: I'm becoming english. Two reasons, one - I drink a cup of brew every single day, and two - I use expressions like 'potter about' without realising.
Much love,
Sofia
